Hearing Essay

Can You Hear That?

Dear Diary:

It’s me, Hattie. I know that I haven’t written in a while, but I feel as though I must now. Lately I have been feeling really different. I see the world differently than I ever have. I see things in greater detail and in a different sharpness. Things smell stronger, better, different. All of these things overwhelm me totally. I can’t wrap my head around what is really happening here. But I will get back to this later.

So today I sat next to the nicest boy. I am not very good when talking to guys as you know by past entries. His name is Riley and I have this feeling that he is my soul mate. I know what you are probably thinking. Soul mate? But it is true our hands touched and I feel as though we are meant to spend the rest of our life together. I could see everything in that instant. I could see our house with the deck and the wraparound porch. We would have a beautiful garden in honor of my mother and all that she has done for me as a person. It would be full of perfect flowers that would seem to bloom all year round. This house has everything that I have always wanted and even more. The weather is perfect and so is he. The person I am meant to be with sitting next to me on a bench in the middle of my garden. I see two beautiful girls in their cute matching play clothes, well they are not really play clothes, but the girls have made them that way. I could freak out about it, but I have chosen not to because life is too short. Yes in just one brush of the hand I was able to see my whole future or what I thought to be my future. This is just one of the many things that has seemed different to me.

Can I tell you something that I have never told anyone before? I feel like I know people that I don’t know. I have never met these people, but yet it feels like I have for my entire life. I sometimes hear voices of these people. I don’t mean that I am crazy and I am hearing voices telling me to do stuff. But I am hearing voices that are telling me things. They are telling me things about a few of my best friends. And then of course I tell them because well I think she should know. When I say each of these things they look at me in disbelief that I could and would possibly know all of this. But I do and I look at her and I can tell her what her house will look like and her soul mate. And she doesn’t want to know but at the same time she does wonder. I continue like am a story teller this whole time with the voices in my head telling me what to say. Like I am their puppet and they can and will control me. Yes, I might sound crazy but somewhere inside of me I know that I am not. But do you know what I do think? I think that I am a mind reader. That is for lack of a better term that is what I must say. I mean I know that in some way shape or form I was in my friends mind. I could see what she would one day see and to be honest that really scares me. I have all the signs of something physic like that. I read once that “Whether we know it or not, we’re all street-corner psychics. Without the ability to divine others’ thoughts and feelings, we couldn’t handle the simplest social situations—or achieve true intimacy with others.” (Paul para. 1). Am I a mind reader? Do I hear the voices of people that I have never met? I am so confused and yet so enthralled in this whole thing that I don’t want it to be a dream. No, it’s not a dream. It can’t be I mean this isn’t the first time I have noticed something like this. Well it is getting rather late so I will say goodnight, but I will be doing research and will be writing again very soon!

Hattie

Dear Diary:

Alright, I know it has been a few days, but I have done my research. The first thing I decided to research was mind reading. Thanks to the media I have this impression that mind readers sit it overly colorful tents with weird hats and over charge you. After doing some honest and hard research I know that I could not be more wrong in those ideas. I saw a lot of sites that were totally making things up, thus why people like me get the wrong idea about something like this. I found a few general definitions of what a mind reader is but this one is the best of those; “Mind Reading is a unique reference work covering the entire spectrum of human emotions.” (Kingsley Publishers para 1). Okay so I know it has to do with emotions, which makes sense when you think about it. I kept reading on that site and noticed that some of the things I had noticed before and after the experience were very typical of people who have physic abilities. I remembered back to that day where we just brushed hands and how I felt. I had all but one of those symptoms that people usually get. But how did all of this come about with just the brush of two hands? I can’t seem to figure that out just yet, but I shall continue to work on it.

After I finished spending hours looking up different things about physic energy and mind readers I decided to research how people can hear voices. And no, I do know that I don’t need to go to the loony bin but rather understand how and why things happen. I must say there were some fascinating sites and I got lost in the information for hours. I am going to write in here one point which I found most interesting. “Some theories for these voices lie with ghosts of other spirits. It is thought that dead family members or friends may come back to guide the living through tough situations or other endeavors.” (Essortment para 2). That totally makes sense in my confused head! I lost my mom a year ago and it has been such a struggle for me to make it without her. When she was alive she was always doing everything that she could to help me in every way. So, it is only natural that she would help to guide me through certain situations when she was gone. But sometimes I hear a man’s voice. Hmmm…what man do I know that has died that could be affecting me? Well my dad’s dad. But I never met him. Maybe he and my mom are working together to help me through this hard time in my life. Wow if that isn’t an overwhelming thought then I don’t know what is. Well I started writing late and now it is even later so I should go and try to get some sleep tonight.

Hattie

Dear Diary:

Okay, today at school when we were supposed to be working on our history projects, but I just couldn’t stop thinking about that experience I had the other day. I have told all of this to my dearest friend Alice and she said that she believes me. I have to say, that is good to hear. So I asked her if she could let me hold something of hers that meant a lot to her emotionally. She went right over to her desk and picked up the most beautiful necklace that her aunt had given her. Unfortunately her aunt had passed away from cancer before she was born, but Alice said that it still meant a lot to her. So I told the necklace in my hand and the second that I did I could see this beautiful place. It was this perfectly kept garden with all of these wonderful flowers blooming and in the center of all of this was a woman. She must have owned the garden because of how proudly she stood there looking upon it. I decided to tell Alice every detail that I was seeing and she confirmed that her aunt had indeed kept a beautiful garden. I began to describe to her what this woman looked like. Again Alice agreed that yes I was describing her aunt at least that is what Alice remembered from the family photos she had seen. I was able to do this time and time again with different people and different objects. I could see things in the past and things that were going to happen in the future. I must say that after the reading I have done and all of the research that I do believe that I have some sort of physic ability. My world has been turned upside down in a good way and at the same time I am scared. I have decided to go to a specialist and tell them what has been happening to me. I promise to keep writing and to continue what has happened to me and my physic experiences.

Hattie

Works Cited

“Hearing Voices In Your Head”. essortment. 22 March 2009 <http://www.essortment.com/all/hearingvoices_rjow.htm>.

Kingsley, Jessica. “Mind Reading”. Jessica Kingsley Publishers. 22 March 2009 <http://www.jkp.com/mindreading/>.

Paul, Annie. “Psychology Today: Mind Reading”. Psychology Today. 22 March 2009 <http://www.psychologytoday.com/articles/index.php?term=pto-4401.html&fromMod=popular_relationships>.

Before Goals:

I have decided to write in a new genre. I will be writing this paper as a diary entry. I am so excited to write in this genre and really challenge myself. I think I am excited about writing this paper. I will try to go out of my comfort zone with this and reach down deep to make it touching. I think that is will be a very different feeling for me and for those that read it. I know that a diary entry is similar to writing in the narrative genre, but I think it will help me to open up as a writer. I am not worried about what I am going to write but rather worried that it might not be accepted or understood. I have picked a rather interesting topic. One that you would not expect someone to write about in a diary entry and that is exactly why I chose it.

After Goals:

Wow. This essay really took off. I loved doing research for it and learning so many things about mind readers and different physic abilities that I did not know before. I think that perhaps my writing and sentence structure is not as complex as it has been in past papers I have written, but the concept itself is more challenging than one that I would normally choose. I am very glad that I chose a new genre and a very unusual topic. It was most definitely a growing essay for me as I challenged myself in a few different ways. Over all I am happy with the outcome of this paper. I am most positive that I will need to rework a few things to make them better. I had a lot of trouble trying to write an ending that fit the genre and the topic. It was difficult and I feel as though I have not yet found the right ending so I will continue to search for it.